What am I doing?

I suppose I have decided to start this blog primarily because I didn't like my wordpress blog, and secondly because I need to vent. I am 20 years old, I have no clue what I am doing with my life, and I have a crazy unstable wonderful family who somehow keeps me glued together, ironically. I have friends, some old, some newer. One that hates my guts but who I will ALWAYS care about deeply. I have learned that at times we lose the people we love the most to the casualties of life. So basically this blog is about me living my life, stumbling through it and realizing that even I make mistakes, probably a lot more than anyone else.